Profession or calling or both?

"What do you actually do for a living?"

Deep breath.

Sigh.

This question has been with me for so long—too long.

During my time as a dancer and dance teacher I heard it often.

Between the lines I heard:

"This isn't a serious profession."

"You can't do this forever."

In my perception, it was a subliminal questioning and invalidation of art, creativity and working with the body.

Even though I mostly played it down, it always hurt somehow.

It was as if I had to explain or justify myself.

Not because I didn't believe in myself, but because the question always made me feel that the depth and value of what I do was often not recognized from the outside.

Back then, I moved bodies, worked with connection, encouraged expression of emotions, unshaming and much more...

Today, I work my work deepened even more.

I open spaces for deep connection, embodiment, intimacy and often accompany people through profound healing processes.

THE QUESTION is still there.

It might be wearing a slightly different costume.

And yet it often still touches the same vulnerable spot:

I often feel unseen.

I wouldn´t have any energy for another job because I do what I do with all my heart.

That's why I have to make sure I can make a living from it.

Because yes, it's my main job.

I´m present with people through deep self-discovery, bodywork, intimacy research and conscious relationship development.

What many don't see:

> This isn´t just about candles, music, and soft light.

> A single workshop involves weeks of planning, inner preparation and follow-up support.

> Spaces in which true and genuine connection is possible and deep human intimacy can be experienced are so "unusual" in our society that it is very vulnerable and requires deep inner trust and strong roots to offer and share this work publicly.

> I accompany people in spaces where they don't just "have another random experience" but encounter themselves – deeply, vulnerably, often in a painful but healing way.

> This is about holding space, nervous system knowledge, trauma awareness, presence, reflection, ethics, and deep compassion.

This isn't a hobby.

You can't learn it in a book.

This requires a great deal of self-awareness and continued learning, a constant practice.

It's a path.

My path.

And I take this path seriously.

And I take you seriously when you come into my space.

"What do you actually do for a living...?"

This time the question felt different.

Maybe something was different inside me too?

I didn't see any doubt in their eyes and I didn´t hear any skepticism between the lines.

Instead, I perceived recognition and appreciation.

And then- a small, crucial addition:

"...what you're doing just seems so professional, clear, and confident."

This version of the question deeply touched me.

I feel seen!

Thank you!

Thank you to everyone who feels me like this.

Thank you for your curiosity.

Thank you if you might come to an event soon.

Thank you if you've already experienced my work.

Thank you if you've been on this path with me for a while.

Thank you for your trust, your openness, and for your questions.

And yes—this is my job.

Full-time.

Full-heart.

Full-soul.